All my ducks in a row

So finally after weeks of paperwork, waiting on clearances, approvals, court systems, we, meaning Arthur and myself finally got all our approvals to bring his niece home with us to live.  In hopes to make this a smooth transition for all of us, she will be staying with us 3 days a week for a few weeks just to get her adjusted to us, our house, rules, etc. However last night was her very first sleepover and it went GREAT! she had a few tears around teeth brushing time,  I don't think she cared for the flavor of tooth paste or the fact that I did such a thorough job. My daughter absolutely amazed me at how well she shared and helped care for her. She insisted on laying next to her for a few minutes to stroke her hair and sing to her to  make sure Carmella felt " comfortable". I already feel a bond growing, it brought tears to my eyes last night. I'm really hoping this all goes smooth, her mother is allowed one, one hour visit per week, supervised. I decided that I will be taking her to all of these, I don't feel comfortable with a stranger driving her around, even if they work for DCF.
I only have 3 months left of school and I could not be more happy, I feel like everything is coming together!

DIY

I have so many projects/ crafts I'd like to start! I see so many things on pintrest and facebook. My daughter and I frequently do small projects, we just finished one making headbands out of egg cartons. First I cut the egg cartons into different shaped flowers and then Amelia painted them ,then we used the glue gun to glue the flowers the different color and style ribbons. They came out super cute and where very easy to make! I have recently been researching how to " weather or distress" wood furniture. I have always loved the look of antique wood furniture. I have at the moment my bed taken apart( for 3 weeks now ) thinking I'm gonna get started. It's just so much work, especially to achieve the look I want. First I have to sand all the wood, then a bottom coat of white, then turquois, then black. When all this paint  dries I'll use different scraping tools and possibly the sand paper again to achieve that "distressed " look. All three coats of paint should show through.

I got my girl!

So I have made a few post's in the past, in regards to my sister in law and her poor little daughter. Well I am happy to say myself and boyfriend are now going through the steps to foster her. We recently had our home study done, we now have to get our finger prints and background checked by the FBI. Talking with the social worker yesterday just broke my heart! I found out that DCF  had been called on my sister in law 15 times before  they finally removed the baby from her. They had been living in a warehouse that had formally been used tire shop that the father had owned previous to there downward spiral with meth. What we thought were bug bites, actually turned out be what's called "meth bugs" . They are not actual bugs but they are sores on the skin caused by all the exposure to the harsh chemicals . She had not been to the docter in over a year, she was behind 6 immunizations. I cant even imagine what goes on in this babies head. My heart hurts for her... The three months will be very long. We will be "sharing care" for about a three month period with my boyfriends mother, allowing all of us to get used to one another . Then she will be with us full time for one year. After the one year, the state of Florida will asses the Mother and Father to see if the have complied with all there requirements and if it is possible to reunite them. I don't even want to think about this day, it makes me cringe!

Some people

I do believe some people should just not have children. This is a continuation of a previous blog about my sister in law and her daughter. My niece Carmella is a two year old surprisingly well adjusted baby, Lord knows she's been juggled from place to place and person to person all her little two year old life. As of the current situation, my boyfriends mother now has custody of Carmella for one year. Colleen has one year to get her act together .I truly do not believe she can do it. She is a self serving, manipulating piece of garbage! Which suites me fine! I do not think she should ever be able to have her back and I also think she should have her reproductive organs yanked right out! So the problem I have is why the state gave the grandmother custody? I think that the reason Coleen has so many problems is because of her mother. I would very much like to take her in. I want nothing more to take this little angel away from all this craziness. I think the grandmother wants all the benefits, which actually is not a whole lot but wants us to take the baby. I don't think this is right, but the thought has crossed my mind to just say " keep the benefits and just stay away"! I'm currently waiting to hear back from the social worker, I really hope her eyes will be open after talking with me.

I guess i'll kiss my freesom goodbye

So my boyfriend and I have a pretty good relationship, pretty open. Open, meaning able to talk about things or share things that maybe some couples may not be able to talk about or maybe starts an argument. We both go out with friends or without each other from time to time ( me more than him). Generally these outings involve alcohol. So the past couple of times I've been out without him, I seem to end up in the dog house or sick as a dog. Which I do find a bit strange because either way they are both done unintentionally, I think I can usually use some restraint or have moderate judgment. Last week I went out after school, by myself just to get out for a bit, some "me" time.  I said I was just gonna have "one drink" . Well, let me tell you! One turned into two, which turned into three, which turned into friends arriving, which turned into SHOTS , which turned into no communication on my part. I can completely understand my boyfriends anger and frustration, he wanted me home and I was out, late, doing God knows what in his mind.  I was sick for two whole days on top of the " I told you so " or " you deserve it" treatment. Basically I can never go out by myself ever again! The completely crappy part is it's 100% my fault. We had something good and I guess I completely took advantage and abused it.

Tom is my FRIDAY!

I'm sooooooooo not looking forward to getting up at 5am tom. People say you get used to waking up that early, they're  filthy lair's!  Also people often say things like " WOW you are so chipper, you must be a morning person". I'm here to tell you there is literally no such thing as a " morning person". I do it cause I'm an adult and its required to make a living. I can assure you I'll be quietly chanting to myself all day tom, " next 3 days off, next 3 day's off"!

Sleep, whats that?

I really wonder why it is that I could lay down just about anywhere in the middle of the day and sleep soundly. At night I'm generally over tired, during the day I'm barely able to keep my eyes open and yet I will toss and turn all night long. Its most likely due to my acing body, general stress, and anxiety from the day. But how does one break this cycle? I mean on the days that I could possibly sneak in a nap, I don't simply because I fear for what my night will hold for me. Still no Sandman...